Discerning Gods calling usually involves many attempts and failures. You didnt arrive on this planet with your calling preclarified and your gifts pre-developed. Before Peter walked on the water he said, "Lord if it is you, Command me to come to you on the water". Jesus said, "Come". Theres a lesson here for you. YOU"RE not in charge of water walking, JESUS is! This isnt some power at your disposal to be used any time you choose, for whatever you please. Before you get out of the boat you better make sure that this is what you´ve been called to do, and that Jesus is the ONE doing the calling. Gods looking for something more that impulsiveness. Sometimes we make reckless decisions about relationships, finances, or work, then rationalize it with a veneer of spiritual language.