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#1 Psyloki

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Posted 30 March 2011 - 01:11 AM

Having a personality disorder, such as Borderline Personality Disorder, is associated with lower functional status, lower health care satisfaction, and a higher risk for major depression and substance abuse.

Indications of low functioning Borderline Personality Disorder include the following:

*self-mutilation (self-injury, cutting, etc.)
*excessive risk taking, such as:
numerous and near-fatal traffic accidents
*extreme addictions (gambling, sex, danger, etc.)
*substance abuse and misuse
*sexual promiscuity and risky sexual practices
*frequent hospitalizations
*successive and frequent non-completed suicide attempts
*inability to maintain employment
*extreme instability in interpersonal relationships
*extreme anger, rage and violent behavior beginning in adolescence (or earlier)
*prolonged involvement with criminal justice system and prison

http://www.borderlinecentral.com/articles/...functioning.php


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




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Posted 30 March 2011 - 02:16 AM


lol


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


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Posted 30 March 2011 - 02:25 AM

We all have traits associated with borderline
personality disorder. At
times, we all let our feelings overcome logic, blow things out of proportion,
and act impulsively in ways we later regret. If we didn’t, we wouldn’t
be human.
Two key differences between what is “normal” and what veers into personality
disorder territory are extremity and frequency. When these traits,
thoughts, feelings, and behaviors become so intense and so frequent they
greatly interfere with jobs, relationships, and other aspects of daily life,
one or more personality disorders may be present.
The Essential Guide to Borderline Personality Disorder


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


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Posted 30 March 2011 - 02:30 AM

Substance abuse is so common with this that it's silly. YET! Nothing's wrong with me and if I can just find someone more normal than I am to cling to, then its all good. lol At least for a few months or years. I may never feel whole, but they'll help fill something in me that's lacking.
Yay!


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron


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Posted 30 March 2011 - 02:56 AM

The above is nothing but bullshit. I seriously thought it in my 20s, however.


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


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Posted 30 March 2011 - 06:23 PM

well i have all of those except for the very last one.

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Posted 30 March 2011 - 06:25 PM

QUOTE (Psyloki @ Mar 30 2011, 02:30 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Substance abuse is so common with this that it's silly. YET! Nothing's wrong with me and if I can just find someone more normal than I am to cling to, then its all good. lol At least for a few months or years. I may never feel whole, but they'll help fill something in me that's lacking.
Yay!


so should i just kill myself now or make everyone around me as miserable as possible for as long as possible?

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Posted 30 March 2011 - 06:39 PM

Once, I used to dwell under the same roof as half-a-dozen women of that description ascared.gif

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Posted 02 April 2011 - 10:22 PM

QUOTE (Guest @ Mar 30 2011, 04:23 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
well i have all of those except for the very last one.

Me too. I've had one scrape with the law, but that's it.


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


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#10 Psyloki

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Posted 02 April 2011 - 10:23 PM

QUOTE (Guest @ Mar 30 2011, 04:25 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
QUOTE (Psyloki @ Mar 30 2011, 02:30 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Substance abuse is so common with this that it's silly. YET! Nothing's wrong with me and if I can just find someone more normal than I am to cling to, then its all good. lol At least for a few months or years. I may never feel whole, but they'll help fill something in me that's lacking.
Yay!


so should i just kill myself now or make everyone around me as miserable as possible for as long as possible?

That's my dilemma. I don't like making people feel miserable, but I'm too chicken to actual end my life. I'm working on the middle ground which is just live alone so I'm the only one making myself miserable. That's really hard.


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron


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Posted 02 April 2011 - 10:25 PM

QUOTE (Safe @ Mar 30 2011, 04:39 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Once, I used to dwell under the same roof as half-a-dozen women of that description ascared.gif

I am so very sorry for that. I'm surprised you survived. lol
I only grew up with one. And that's also one of my issues. How much of my shit is PTSD from growing up with a mother like that and how much of it did I actually absorb? I mean, I know I have issues and the fact that I know is what makes doctors say I don't actually have it, but I do definitely display symptoms.
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I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron


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Posted 02 April 2011 - 11:31 PM

I do sympathize with your plight, Psyloki.
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Posted 03 April 2011 - 01:58 AM

Oh, icky! hugs.gif


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron


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Posted 03 April 2011 - 01:58 AM

I'll figure it out eventually, but thanks for the sympathy.


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron


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Posted 20 April 2011 - 12:33 AM

The main feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image and emotions. People with borderline personality disorder are also usually very impulsive.

They have an unstable self concept fueled by a fragile identity in constant need of validation to the point that many people with BPD feel empty like they are not a real person without someone "seeing" them. Many rush into relationships, consume drugs, etc, trying to fill that void.

FUN!!


I have experienced being nothing and found no peace in it.
I am too attached to the material realm even though I rail against it at every turn.
I cannot let go.




If I don't write to empty my mind, I go mad.


Lord Byron





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