Desperately attempting to muffle
the forbidden thunder
of a heartbeat,
long held in the arms of Morpheus.
Delicious betrayal envelopes
and wicked surrender gives way
to the sweet taboo
of an
emotional bouquet being allowed to bloom.
Knowing blue windows
graciously plead blindness
as my soul litters the floor
with an unfinished symphony.
An emporess with no clothes,
I quickly don the
comfortable
thick
blackness
to smother impetuous nakedness, vowing
never again
to allow it the light of day.
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Started by *Guest~, Jan 23 2006 03:42 PM
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Posted 23 January 2006 - 05:51 PM
The breathe
the flow
in and out it goes
flung high
and down again
and assuredly ascend again
Sometimes the wave
sometimes the surfer
it all balances out in the end
the flow
in and out it goes
flung high
and down again
and assuredly ascend again
Sometimes the wave
sometimes the surfer
it all balances out in the end
Attempts to guilt or shame another into behaving the way one wishes is nothing but a control mechanism used by those who feel incapable of being who they want to be in order to feel comfortable with their own choices. Misery loves company. A truly free being allows others to be exactly who they are. All social controls are born of fear and I can hear you saying, "but if everyone could just be however they wanted to be it would be a chaotic and dangerous world". It already is and it's the fear-born controlling behaviors causing it.
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Posted 24 January 2006 - 11:30 AM
Fantasies in Hell
I am so FUCKING TIRED of this CRAP!
...this crap some call 'living'.
I didn't ask for it.
I didn't want it.
I didn't choose it.
In a weak moment
I allowed you to infiltrate
my brain
and my fucking heart.
drops
turned into ripples
turned into waves
beating me down
beating me down
beating me down
Helpless to fight the beckoning undertow
offering a shower of something strange...
-FEELING-
What in the hell is that?
So I asked for it...
wanted it....
chose it...
Wicked ecstasy
sweet misery
My brain and my heart
WILL NOT STOP!
Damn energizer bunnies!
Someone PLEASE beat the crap out of them!
Pulling me farther into the vortex
only with more pain than before.
Trapped in a cesspool
coated with my self.
Stuck in a fucking "me" cage
and too weak
to choose.
to will.
to give it up.
to breathe.
to stop the pain.
to go back to 'before'.
to live.
Hating to be among the living
but hating to be alone.
Too afraid to live
and too fucking afraid to die.
Me, myself and I
...and him.
My fucking heart hurts.
I hate you!
please don't desert me.
Stay the hell away from me!
I love you.
Fucking fantasies in hell.
Holiday in Hades.
I AM IN PAIN.
SOMEBODY CALL THE PARAMEDICS!
Fuck this crap.
Stay the hell out of my head
and leave my heart alone.
...but please don't abandon me.
So stupid to 'feel'
So stupid to 'love'
So stupid to let someone in.
So stupid to put my heart on a platter.
FUCK the day you kissed my heart
and fuck the day I allowed it.
Please stab it some more, will you?
I can't decide whether
numbness or pain feels best.
Self hatred offers warm, black solace.
Somebody please turn the fucking light out.
I am so FUCKING TIRED of this CRAP!
...this crap some call 'living'.
I didn't ask for it.
I didn't want it.
I didn't choose it.
In a weak moment
I allowed you to infiltrate
my brain
and my fucking heart.
drops
turned into ripples
turned into waves
beating me down
beating me down
beating me down
Helpless to fight the beckoning undertow
offering a shower of something strange...
-FEELING-
What in the hell is that?
So I asked for it...
wanted it....
chose it...
Wicked ecstasy
sweet misery
My brain and my heart
WILL NOT STOP!
Damn energizer bunnies!
Someone PLEASE beat the crap out of them!
Pulling me farther into the vortex
only with more pain than before.
Trapped in a cesspool
coated with my self.
Stuck in a fucking "me" cage
and too weak
to choose.
to will.
to give it up.
to breathe.
to stop the pain.
to go back to 'before'.
to live.
Hating to be among the living
but hating to be alone.
Too afraid to live
and too fucking afraid to die.
Me, myself and I
...and him.
My fucking heart hurts.
I hate you!
please don't desert me.
Stay the hell away from me!
I love you.
Fucking fantasies in hell.
Holiday in Hades.
I AM IN PAIN.
SOMEBODY CALL THE PARAMEDICS!
Fuck this crap.
Stay the hell out of my head
and leave my heart alone.
...but please don't abandon me.
So stupid to 'feel'
So stupid to 'love'
So stupid to let someone in.
So stupid to put my heart on a platter.
FUCK the day you kissed my heart
and fuck the day I allowed it.
Please stab it some more, will you?
I can't decide whether
numbness or pain feels best.
Self hatred offers warm, black solace.
Somebody please turn the fucking light out.
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Posted 24 January 2006 - 03:46 PM
Put your hand in your pocket.
Feel the key?
It's yours to do with what you will.
Feel the key?
It's yours to do with what you will.
Attempts to guilt or shame another into behaving the way one wishes is nothing but a control mechanism used by those who feel incapable of being who they want to be in order to feel comfortable with their own choices. Misery loves company. A truly free being allows others to be exactly who they are. All social controls are born of fear and I can hear you saying, "but if everyone could just be however they wanted to be it would be a chaotic and dangerous world". It already is and it's the fear-born controlling behaviors causing it.
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Posted 25 January 2006 - 02:39 PM
I am they! 
Attempts to guilt or shame another into behaving the way one wishes is nothing but a control mechanism used by those who feel incapable of being who they want to be in order to feel comfortable with their own choices. Misery loves company. A truly free being allows others to be exactly who they are. All social controls are born of fear and I can hear you saying, "but if everyone could just be however they wanted to be it would be a chaotic and dangerous world". It already is and it's the fear-born controlling behaviors causing it.
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Posted 26 January 2006 - 01:24 PM
We are all he.
Attempts to guilt or shame another into behaving the way one wishes is nothing but a control mechanism used by those who feel incapable of being who they want to be in order to feel comfortable with their own choices. Misery loves company. A truly free being allows others to be exactly who they are. All social controls are born of fear and I can hear you saying, "but if everyone could just be however they wanted to be it would be a chaotic and dangerous world". It already is and it's the fear-born controlling behaviors causing it.
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