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[Tree Hugger]

Know this O Seeker
That in asking, be prepared to have the answers, for no one who stands outside and knocks and knocks will be turned away, but sometimes you are tested and must knock again and again to see if you are sincere. Stay there and do not leave for if you have found your way to the door it means you have asked the right questions.

And the answers will strip you of what you think you are for you are not that, and show you what you are. Because when the door opened I shielded my eyes that light was so great and it shone into my dark places where I did not want to look and a great voice said to me “You wanted to know. This is what you are!”

And I wept and sought to hide myself but felt that my life hung on that moment when the door was behind me I had only to make a dash, close it and I would be back before knowing began. But there I stayed and the voice said “Get up on your feet where you belong for you I love.” And again I wept but standing this time, but bowing my head the whole time. I knew the light wanted me to look up but still I felt so unworthy.

But I only wanted to know how your worlds work and did not ask what I was?
But the voice said,
“You cannot know how my worlds function, without knowing yourself, for you are part of My worlds.
Know Thyself!
I am ONE, and everything if of Me, you cannot know only one small part of me, without knowing the whole of Me, as far as you can know in human form.”

So then I listened still with head bowed not to look into that great light as I felt so unworthy. And I was shown all my life going by in pictures and I did not want to look, but I looked . I saw all my mistakes, and my petty manipulations and my whining and my flaws and petulance, and the light would not stop. It showed me when I had been cruel and selfish and I winced and it was very painful and still it went on and I saw the grudges I had kept towards others and taken out on myself. I saw my addictions. I saw the resentments I held against others who had been cruel to me.
And so I said to the light, now you see why I hid and why I bow my head. But I did not want to question the light when it showed me what I was.
So the light said:

“Listen to Me, not to the voices behind you. See with understanding that your view of yourself, began a long time ago when you were told you were unworthy and of no value. You must now do a great hard thing. You must forgive those who told you such lies out of ignorance of what they themselves were and what you are, and you must do the hardest thing you have ever done. You must forgive yourself and embrace yourself and lift up your head!”

And so I obeyed the voice, and rolled back the scenes of my life, replaying them on a giant screen. And, I forgave the ignorance of both the ones inflicting the wounds, and the harder part, forgiving myself for accepting and molding myself in the image of what I was thought to be by others. Something then lifted up inside of me like a great heavy weight and I sighed deeply and the floodgates of forgiveness poured forth and I felt as if something dark which have covered me like a cloak was gone.
I wept this time for joy and for the love, which I felt for the first time for myself. I saw what the voice had said was true, and instead of hiding my eyes I opened them and raised my arms to embrace the light.

Be prepared O Seeker, to make this journey back through your time, for the light will take you there. You will see what you really are. You will see yourself in light without the garment of flesh. You will see what those who have not taken this journey of forgiveness cannot see.

So I bathed in forgiveness like a river and I was perfect and all the scars of my own making were slowly healing with every revelation. And I laughed at the irony of life and the pains I caused myself. I was not ashamed to stand in the light for I was loved and I loved the voice and the light.

And so I received more answers than I had questions, and I felt at One with the voice. I wanted to merge with that truth and that perfect love, for the barrier was gone and then I realized the voice was not behind the door but was coming from within each of my cells. The light had been in me all along but cloaked by guilt and self- condemnation. And every sun rose and every star gleamed and I could feel every heart beating in rthymn with mine.
Just then all the pain float to the top of my soul and I saw it and with the adeptness of an alchemist I transmuted it into love and saw its value.

One more thing Seeker.

If the Seeker knew he had water all along, he would drink it, but not knowing this, he thirsts in the desert of this world and dreams of water. Those not thirsty will not search for the Source. For only on worlds like earth will one find Seekers who are thirsty and because they are thirsty they will find the waters of life.

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